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Compilations of Complications

A chronicle of individual poems written with a common emotion over a span of time.

The Other Essay

Yap, yap, yap

All you do is talk

It burns, you spit

I die

Departure time is nearing

Hooray! I get a new feeling

In the afterlife let us not meet

I certainly won't greet!

Yet Another Essay

Hello, again you murderous fool

You sure are not hapless

Enough of your banter

Kill! Kill!

Death that you have escaped

From me

If you won't die

I will! For my sanity

Tomorrow I'll be dead

Today you'll have me killed

Yesterday we weren't happy

Forever we'll be lonely

For I Alone

To take part in this most atrocious practice

And to try to become what is

To be requested and expected of me

I resign my will to you

In that very moment you spoke to me

I was lashed, criticized, and humiliated

Like a person most vile and lowest of low

I was treated like dirt.

The constant disapproval from you

The one thing that brightens your miserable existence

It is disheartening and derrogatory

Wrong in every form.

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Late

I didn't think this through

The tough times that I brewed

I do believe it's true

My love, it's not you.

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SHORTSTUCK!

(May 6, 2009--A little before eight o'clock pm)

Three people walking down the road

One fell for the other

Other fell for another

Another fell for one.

They are all going down

Walking around

Trying to hold hands

Unable to and ashamed too

Three people getting lost down the road

All because their hearts don't know where to go

They stopped for a while

Figured things out.

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Insatiable Friday

 

I need to feel

a little less frustration

I need to feel 

a little more emotion

I don't belong in

a world less my own

I don't belong in

a world with more unknowns

I should be so

incredibly happy

I should be so

undeniably lucky

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Crazy 18th!

Finding out what you do

Repeating, what's new?

Names in my head

People I know

Occupying my life

Memories captured

Delete, next, next, how cute!

Save

Super delayed response

Did I stutter?

You heard me sing

Passed out in the tub

Emotional drama queen

Cold as ice, sharpened like knives

Be careful,

I'm hot.

I'm a lamb

Easily fooled, very stubborn

A little fluffy on the outside

I'll shave when you shave.

Keep stalling, keeps getting boring

Stuffed cat is orange

My favorite color, but

Purple is my love

Weird? Yes you are.

Not me, you, duh!

I'm suppose to be doing something now

Whatever, this is rare.

The wind blowing my hair

It's cool

Caramel apples, so good

Can I have some more?

I'm a tad bit fruity today

It's a gift

It was my birthday not so long ago

Delicious, that's what it said.

I've been given an offer, but I said no

Because I have it already

I can take care of it

I'll handle it.

Pretty, I've been told

Funny, hell yes!
Like a teddy bear?

Nope, not fat enough

I need to go now

Not far, just downstairs

Grab some new clothes

Take off the old ones

You said something?

I didn't think so

You better not

Spawn!

Too little? Too much?

What am I saying?

I don't know, why do you care?

I'm free.

So much to do, so much to worry about

All I want to do is take my time, enjoy my life

I don't need silly things, though I have many

I'm an egoiste.

Open windows, open doors

Shut it tight

It's not cold anymore

Wrapped.

It's time

So soon?

Almost done

Almost there.

I shouldn't have daydreamed

Shouldn't have said anything

Again, I'm off with my head

Finalmente.

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May They Be

Come sway with me, take me

To the deep, blue--happy let's be, sea

Baby, don't rush me! 

Save me from regrets

This April so blessed, so divine

An indulgence once 

A memory forever

Undying in my heart, unlike our lives

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It Isn't So

I see people listening

I hear them giggle

Whispering the unimaginable

What's wrong?

Here I go again

Venturing into depths too deep

But it does not feel silly

I love to swim anyway

How can I not?

Because I know what happens, potentially

It's dark and I can't see

So I sleep and dream and see a shed of light, the glittering hope.

SO what? Enjoy!
You live once, make it last

Make it happy, make it yours

When you have a pole, dance!

I like that, I think

The dancing part and you

Don't say it isn't so

How would you know?

Love me, love me not

I won't die, I will cry

Alone in my room, all in a day

That's my limit, no more, no less.

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Anticipation

A new revelation

Sparks of admiration

Firsts and flirts

Happy to be loved

Oil on canvas

Cornered with lust

Shadows that dance

Floating around

Do I know you?

I don't know, how about you?

Making out is fun

Driving with my hun

Birds fly and bees sting

Talked about some insane things

I linger on, I hold on

Happy me, how about he?

Satisfaction guaranteed?

No honey for you busy baby!

Stay with me, be with me

Care for me, like me

Too much, it's too much

No more, I can't handle much

Anticipation brings remorse

Just a little, that's enough.

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SCHIZOPHRENIAC

the sounds are rushing in my sleep
the sounds are fading in your feet
the sounds are washing all there is
the sounds are dying in a leash

LISTEN! LISTEN TO THE SOUNDS
LISTEN! LISTEN TO HOW THEY SWAY
LISTEN! LISTEN TO HOW THEY PRAY
LISTEN! LISTEN TO THE CROWDS

hush? hush? what does it say?
hush? hush? what does it will?
hush? hush? what will it kill?
hush? hush? what will it pay?

SCREAMS! shouts? swear, I WILL
SCREAMS! shouts? solitude, I WANT
SCREAMS! shouts? silence, I WISH FOR
SCREAMS! shouts? serenity, I WISH FOR

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Paradise Kiss

Are you the one who will make me fly?

Or will you break my wings so I would cry?

I used to like all of your lies

Now you have left, what a surprise!

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The Essay

I hope you're happy
You know how shocked I am?
You killed me
Destroyed me

I despise the admiration
Drown it in aggravation
Rip it
Shred it

Run away now!
Run far and wide
A tear in my eye
Left in the cold

The essay, my essay
Murderer!
You ruined it
What more is there to say?

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Plights in Retrospect

To be loved
To be loving
To be despised
To be despising
To be thanked
To be thanking
To be adored
To be adoring
To be remembered
To be remembering

To be what I am

To be me . . .

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On the Brink

Goodbye to you,
My precious,
My love,
And redemption.

In suffering, do we end?
It is a start, why not?
To forever, our love goes on.
Reaching and remembering.

On the brink, do we fall?
If not, hold on perhaps?
Maybe we should not.
Pain is agonizing.

Nothing! there is but,
A chance, in love?
Do I dare? And despair?
It is most unwise!

Lessons, none to ponder.
Edge is steep and humble.
Do wonder! Shall I not?
On the brink, of falling in love?

It is not infatuation!
Ridiculous? Can not pretend.
Arms failing! Mind is falling!
Save, save! Hearts nonempty!

Bliss of faith, hearken!
Send the sweet serendipity!
Shoot arrows golden, Cupid!
Let me fall deep, unbroken!

Gamble with tears and fly!
Freedom shall perish not,
But the heart that was and is.
Crushed by one who cradled me.

Words left unspoken, I say to you.
Vengeance has twice awoken!
Fear of my wrath, I give thee.
Shall I not cry on falling?

Drained of sanity, I am.
Knowing not, of what has been.
Spinning lies webbed on swords,
Thrust it in my chest and regret!

Insomnia is robbing me!
Cease the crime! End it! Slay it!
Happiness was achieved,
Though my weakness it has been.

Romantic, we shall be!
Come forth and take me,
To your kingdom, lay me,
Explore each other, make me.

Yours! Forever I am!
Not a moment we will waste,
For love awaits but none.
A journey, on the brink.

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The

Angelic

Assumption

Whispers in the morning night

Feather soft kisses are in flight

Where is your heart darling?

Near the kingdom's reigning king?

Bright skies and thunderstorms

Does your heart cry and mourn?

In the eve of the battle

Will it still shake? Will it rattle?

Sights are no scenic splendors

You are not one who remembers

Innocence and angelic assumptions

Sinless and no options

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My Sanctuary

Much of everything is forgotten
The memories of pain, rotten
In the midst of smiles she's cryin'
On the inside she's dyin'

Hopes and dreams that she's flyin'
On the death bed she's lyin'
By miseries she's flatten
In a street in Manhattan

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ANTIPATHY


Antipathy is the word
That I will use forevermore
To describe my aversion
Towards hurt

Antipathy is what I feel
Every time I fear
As a friend it appeared to be
Now my wrath it shall see

Antipathy is my cry
For those of whom are afraid to try
To trust and love and to fly
My question is, why?

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Discover Me

To know you

Is my greatest dream,

To be with you

Is my heart's plea.

These shallow whims help me,

Go on through this insanity.

For I despise not to have the sagacity

To make you smile with glee.

How I wish it?

How shall it be?

How do I get you,

To discover me?

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I'll Crush You

Apart we are today
Sorrow has gone astray
Gentle as can be
Mourning that you’re free


Hurting so much,
I could not sleep,
Thinking of you,
Only makes me weak!


In my dreams,
You are always with me.
Holding me tight,
So hush now! Let us not fight!


Clouds of doubt,
Keeping me in the corner,
Locking my desires away,
Oh! Won't you stay?


Believe, that there is tomorrow,
And for all that there is, hope will linger.
Delightful and true.
I'll crush you!

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For Celain

I want to escape the pain
It is causing my eyes to rain
My feelings for you won't drain
Why can't my love for you be slain

Staring at my window pane
I bet you're thinking I'm not sane
Saying you're a candy cane
Someday we'll walk down lover's lane

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Love of My Life

I will cherish you forever
Your face I will remember
Young love might not be clever
But regret I will never

Think of you is what I always do
Even in class and homework too
Sometimes I don’t have a clue
Maybe because my love is true

I may not be the perfect one
But in my heart you will never be gone
Thoughts of your absence I have none
Together, our hearts as one

In my heart and in my soul
I just have one goal
To put a smile on your face
And put a stop to this craze!

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Her Golden Cage

Trapped is she in her golden cage

Playing with her diamond rings

Now she's aged she 's full of rage

Wishing she could free her wings

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Heartbreak Fairytale

Love is such a painful word
Could it be from the Lord?
Now his neck is wrapped with cord
Will she grab a gun or sword?

Reality is biting me
This curse is driving me crazy
Somebody must save me
Help me get through this insanity

Life without trust
Questions without answers
Crumbly as a pie crust
Destruction awaits young lovers

Sacrifice is like a miracle
Young fools can’t handle
Pain could be so remarkable
Treacherous as the flame of a candle

Everything starts with one
With a smile or with a frown
Now all is back to none
She didn’t put on the gown

Love is all but perfect
Gone it is, away from the sun
Now is the time to reflect
In the end she took the gun

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Swingline

by the moon does she fly

hovering with delight

by an instance does she die

stolen by the night

weeping is him all day

knowing it was not a dream

mourning his life away

losing his self-esteem