Poetic Antic {Page 115}

Mine


There is something about you
I can't quite figure out
Why do I feel this way?
You're not even mine

Words you've spoken
Yes, they've eased my mind
But my heart is troubled, still
My feelings put on hold

One of these days, I fear
All my control will disappear
I'll want and have expectations
Things I wonder if you'll cater

Love eludes me
Try as I might, it slips through
Hands turned to fists
I find comfort in violence

Poetic Antic {Page 114}

No Lie


The lights are off
The heat makes me sweat
Stretched out on the bed

Soft noises I keep hearing
I let out a sound
How alarming

I move to a cool spot
Sink my body deeper
Leave a mark forever

Poetic Antic {Page 113}

Hangers

Please make up your mind
And tell me how you really feel
I should go, I should stay
Tell me please, say it aloud

I don't like to keep guessing
The insecurity is eating me
If you can't bear that I go away
I want to stay, stay with you

Next to you, close to you
Where do you keep your heart?
Why do you hide it from me?
I can't keep up with the pace

Why did I change?
I'm losing you, I lost you
I got confused by your lies
Why do I cry only for you?

All you ever do is tempt me and tease me
Why go the distance to hurt me?
Do you not care that I bleed?
I keep dancing in your palm

All the time, in circles, in the dark
I see you're happy, I amuse you
Where does this end, why do I follow your lead?
You're mad, I'm jealous
I lack confidence

Poetic Antic {Page 112}

typical

Gazing outside the
horizontal slits
of the window
on the left side of my bed

I can hear the siren wailing
the busy street bustling
carbon dioxide escaping
out of my chest, slowly

Surrounded by misery
clothes scattered on the bed
books faced down
the table at maximum capacity

the door creaks eerily
air vents look suspicious
six walls in one room
two electric fans and a semi-nudist

Poetic Antic {Page 111}

Bars

Stand aside, let me pass
I won't let you hold me back
No more sorrow, no more regret
Leave your dreams, I'm set

Get away, far away
Leave this place
You can stay
I'll come back someday

Your intentions are unsolicited
I am tired of your badgering
I'm grown, I'm strong
I will walk on my own

Poetic Antic {Page 110}

Immobilized

Struck by a sudden realization
Faith has dawned upon me
Life with such ambitiousness
Leading life down a desolate path

The road to success
Is bitter, sweet, and sentimental
I was a man's downfall
but he was not a ladder I could step on

Poetic Antic {Page 109}

Canister

I never knew how much it kills me
To be alone and uncaring
I'm wide awake, but I choose to close my eyes
Ignore the silence of the riot

Always moving away, never seeing
The way to my destination
I was born to leave the canister
Tell me, how do I go back?

Poetic Antic {Page 108}

Refuse

Could you light me up?
I refuse to lose to her
She is most vile
She makes me chuck up bile.

Is there no other way?
The path I'm taking is hard
I'm dancing with my bare feet
Massive wounds acquired from broken dreams

It does not matter, fear
Failure is impossible
Victory is so bleak
Journeying a million miles, stuck

Poetic Antic {Page 107}

All I See


Driving north, I seek you
The place where happiness resides
I packed our lunch
Homemade food for us two

The music is turned up, all the way
But somehow I can't hear a single sound
What is that pounding?
Why is my heart beating so fast?

Haven't met you in a while
This is very exciting, it scares me
I wound up my window
We are driving in your street

Remembered what happened
Last night in your room
Your sheets where tangled
Time flew and I left before midnight

Should we keep it a secret?

Poetic Antic {Page 106}

It Won't Be


It is so hard to feel
Your heartbeat next to mine
All I can do is imagine
How your arms would wrap
Around me, like those in TV

I guess it is because
You are with her, your lips
Touching together
The thought makes me go crazy
What should I do?

You always come back,
But I end up waiting
For you to do nothing
To be with me, is it
Impossible for us to be?

You have been informed
I'm free constantly
Someday I wish you'd see
When we are next each other
Everything is worth doing

Poetic Antic {Page 105}

Hello

There are reasons why I hide
What I really feel inside
This crusty shell of mine
Contains all my love for you

Nice to meet you Mr. Right Now
Something tells me you're the one
Maybe we'll be later on
Let's just have fun together

Poetic Antic {Page 104}

Was There Any?

I woke up this morning
Refreshed, alive, and empty
My body was well rested
My mind felt tested
And my soul floated away

I don't recall the dreams I had prior
I remember the feelings I had
I tried to shake the uncertainty off

Poetic Antic {Page 103}

Nothing Happened

It's cold, damp, and dark
You keep shouting at me
I was left inside the car
The rain is pouring hard

I hear you sing our song
Your voice tugging at my heart
It hurts, but you keep pulling
I try not to cry, I fail

We apologize to each other
Try to make everything work
I need you, please come back
You don't believe me

Everyone is staring
We realize, we gaze above
There are no stars
No hope for lost lovers

Aimlessly I walk
Going nowhere, searching for you
I wonder what happened
Happiness is gone

Poetic Antic {Page102}

Bite, Apple

If you don't belong, stand out
Fight, steal the night
Liberate yourself, don't imitate
Rice, mangoes, and coconut juice

Poetic Antic {Page 101}

Stolen

Following, holding you close
Keeping you within sight
Living life, dreaming dreams
Fading, aging

No one cares if I live or die
I move with the expectations
Riddled with revelations
Dizzy from the revolutions

Down in California
Laying in the sun
Resting in peace
Show me your teeth

Poetic Antic {Page 100}

Nothing Ends

All the places I didn't find

All my hopes scattered around

All the signs I didn't see

All the lies I believed

All is coming back to me.

Poetic Antic {Page 99}

Out of Place

What did you say to me

Back when we weren't in hell

When the clouds are whiter

And the sky was brighter

I was suffocating in second hand smoke

You were huffing and puffing

Didn't you notice my blood shot eyes?

I let go

Every minute ever made

I try hard to concentrate

But my pureness you filtered

Now I enjoy nothing.

Poetic Antic {Page 98}

Hotline

It's so hard to concentrate

When all I see is you

It's so hard to to think straight

When the view is askew

All the cubicles are aligned

All the phones are ringing aloud

My attention is focused on you

Good thing it doesn't show through

I used to think you're stupid

I used to hate your guts

But when I got to know you

I had to take a couple of steps back

You confidence is what captivates me

Your humor needs a bit of work

No matter what I say or do

You're always a gentleman, it's true

I appreciate the times you waited for me,

Held the door, and smiled at me,

These little things you do nonchalantly

I put a little malice for my fantasy

How I would love to spend more time with you

Starting as friends, then best friends, maybe even lovers

I'm getting ahead of myself, woe

I'm content even if my name is all you know

Poetic Antic {Page 97}

A Little Bit

I was played and cheated

I was hurt, but I didn't cry

Adjusted myself a little bit

Moving on with my adventures

Watching the streets stand still

Every car keeps rolling, everything is moving

It's going slow and it's going fast,

Everyone is going forward all the time

Put your hands together

Reach out to the sky

Step up, stand tall, smile wide

Lift your life, start fresh

Kiss me, leave me

I'm through with your goodbyes

Poetic Antic {Page 96}

How To

Let me tell you a little secret

Lend me your ears, zip your mouth

Don't be surprised, keep your poker face

Hurry up before they return

I hear footsteps approaching

I'm a little paranoid, you observed

I'm going to tell you a little secret

Please don't betray my trust

There is something that you do not know

Till now I never really told anyone

It's eating me inside like a gnawing worm

I want to know how to confess it to you